29 is the new 20?!?!

Okay, maybe not the new 20 but my last year of 20's is staring me in the face and I don't like it. When Jeff turned 30 and was feeling bad about it, I'll be honest, I didn't quite understand it. I just kept telling him age is just a number (it was easy to say with a straight face when I was 25!). But now that it's my turn in 1 year, I'm getting nervous. Not because I'm getting 1 year closer towards death or that I'm worried about wrinkles.

It's just that as I get older I start feeling like more and more is expected of me. In my career, in my home life, everything. It's easy when we're young...we can write off certain short-comings by our age, our innocence, our inexperience...but as our age increases, so do our responsibilities. I can only hope that when I turn 30, I'll be happy with where I am and the woman I've grown in to. I guess I better use this last year to refine what I can and learn to accept the 30's that are coming my way.

Comments

Niki said…
I feel exactly the same way. I don't feel like I'm ready to be 30 and hope to accomplish a lot this year. Oh, and I am afraid to get old and wrinkly.
Julie W said…
I never knew this was how I felt, but you nailed it. I am 30 in less than 2 months... I better gear up to feel unaccomplished and irresponsible!
Thirty is a naughty bad word in our house. I'm so in denial. Help me cope!

PS I think you are VERY accomplished and responsible for what it's worth. I've always admired those things about you. :)
Jodi said…
Jaime is right! You have a lot to be proud of. I know exactly what you mean though. It helps to know we are not alone in our feelings. It seems the closer I get to that fateful 30th birthday, the worse I feel about myself. I wish we all lived closer and could start aging "group therapy." Have you made a bucket list? I'm now thinking it's not such a good idea. Making goals I will not be able to accomplish in a year is just giving me more reasons to feel bad about myself.
Jeff & Melissa said…
You girls are so sweet! I guess it's really just us putting our own expectations on ourselves and worrying about what other people think of us. But I agree Jodi, I wish we all lived closer together so we could have a "Dirty Thirties" party and support each other!